2009 – 1990 = ?

I kept my expectations low this time and I was very very happy. Thank God. It’s true you know that when you keep your expectations high, the probability of you getting disappointed is high. Haha, a little bit of Statistics in here. =p But you get my point; it’s always good to be thankful, to appreciate every little thing that you’ve got, then you’ll be satisfied and happy with whatever there is.

Anyway, a big huge thank you to all of you who had remembered my birthday (or was it Facebook that did that remembering job for you?) and to Rachel who was the only friend who gave me a sweet yet simple present. That’s the best present I could ever have and I love it so much. Thanks, Rachel!

I’m looking forward to celebrate my “postponed birthday” with someone. Sorry, can’t celebrate with you today. Sigh.

Also, a gigantic thanks to Carol, who “cheng gor sek máahnfaahn” at my favourite Japanese casual pasta fusion restaurant. Yummy!!~ Haha, a quote from her, “ It’s so delicious and scrumptious that when you take a bite from it, you freeze and hear the angels sing…” xD Okay, so far I haven’t eaten such heavenly food yet. Please, someone bring me to Jogoya one day, heard the food is nice.

To the people who sms-ed me but I didn’t reply, please don’t harbour any resentment or anger towards me yah! I was too busy in my uni because had to finish many stuffs. Now that the lovely weekends are here, I can at least wipe the sweat from my forehead and let out a heavy sigh. Ah, feeling better and lighter. Phew!

All in all, thanks everyone for putting a smile on my face. My life would be so dull without all of you. Thank God that he has blessed me with good friends. Its getting late, gonna be sleeping with real dreamylicious dreams tonight!~

Press F5 to refresh me.

What a day! There’s no such thing as unlucky day as every day is made and given by the Lord. It’s a blessing. No matter how bad your day is, it’s still from the Lord. I feel like a total hypocrite saying this, typing this… I admit that sometimes I’d silently curse God and everyone and everything else when everything seems to go wrong. Thanks Pastor Steven for reminding me that every new day is from the Lord.

It was a Wednesday, like any Wednesday. Again, I was wondering if I should just skip CF and save those extra hours to study and do something more beneficial than just sitting or hanging around CF meetings. Congratulations, Satan aka Lucifer because you’ve just deceived me again. Sigh.

To go or not to go?

Go? Don’t go?

My mind was so puzzled. Heavenly realms were battling against each other to see who wins this lost soul. In the end, I made up my mind: I’m not going. Why? Simply because I’ve got no transport and I’d blame myself for having poor time management that I can’t afford some extra hours to join them for dinner ( which I would very much love to). Sigh.

To cut the long story short, I met H and thank God, he was able to fetch me back after CF meeting, without attending their dinner. Rachel was suggesting to me to ask H to fetch me back but I rejected her idea as H and I weren’t that close. While we were talking about that, suddenly we bumped into H! And I don’t know how the conversation went but all I knew was he offered to fetch me back. Is this God’s plan or what? Fantastic God we have here.

I’m glad I did go for it. It was good for my soul. I somehow got really busy these days and I lost focus on my track and ultimately, lost focus on God. Then, I begin to realise why everything went haywire. Thank God for Pastor Steven. Today, he shared the word titled, “If tomorrow never comes”. One thing for sure, death is not something far or virtual or surreal or fake. If we live each day of our lives with the realisation that we are just mere humans and that live is short, we would live a much better lives in the sense that we take each day as our last day on earth. Just as David said, “Lord, help me number my days”. Today’s message just spoke to me and I do believe that it’s God, calling out to me, reminding me, reaching out to me. I’ve really have forsaken him these days. Please, pray for me to set my life back straight parallel to God’s will. I just realised that I’ve been doing everything by myself and have nicely forgotten that I’ve got a father who’s watching and guarding me. Sigh, I feel so very ashamed of myself. Sigh.

Everything is vanity in life without God.

Uncertainty of life…..certainty of death.

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New start.

I love new. New start, a mark of a fresh beginning. Haha, can picture this clean blank white sheet of paper right in front of me now. And I love new things and adventures that come along my way. I’m really really excited coz the best thing is that monash, the building itself, my course itself and the people I’ll be mixing around with later on will all be sparkling NOO! A bit afraid of walking there though. Heard of cases where people got raped, hypnotized, robbed, kidnapped etc. on the way to monash. Of course, I might sound like a little paranoid feller, but trust me, it haven’t happened to you YET that’s why “you don’t know die” [direct translation in canto.] I’ve read of it, heard of it, seen of it with my two eyeballs so, it’s gotta be darn real like a 4D movie! Nope, I’ve not experienced it yet, but I sure don’t want a single bit of its taste please, thank you. Pepper spray is currently my bestfriend. =p

No talking to strangers.

Quicksand.

Quicksand.

The one word that instantly comes to mind as I reflect upon my course. Why? Coz the moment you enter it things starts happening so fast that it will make your head spin [kena influence from Darry already – if you know what I mean] When now you’ve reached the end of the bridge, it feels like you’ve just started crossing it. It’s like opening a door to enter and closing it behind you to exit. That’s how fast it is, to me. For this reason, I’m so happily sad. Yes, I’ve actually got a few people asking me what this means. I simply made that up and it meant – I’m happy and sad at the same time. So there, you have – happily sad.

Throughout my entire course, I’ve made many new friends and met people with interesting personalities. Though I have got many friends, I wasn’t close to all of them. Most of them were just my “hi and bye” type of friends. I really wished that I had the time to get to know some of them better but unfortunately, I wasn’t given such chance. Although this course gives us the advantage of choosing our own time slots and creating our own timetable to provide students with flexibility, I personally feel that this course is not too good as it doesn’t have a fixed class whereby students can bond and built relationships together throughout the entire course. I don’t feel any warmth or a sense of togetherness or some team building spirit. None. Naa. Zilch. Nil.Zero. Boh. Tadak. Iie. Mei you. Boh. Nan. Opsoh. Mou. [can you think of any others?] For every class I enter, I had different group of friends. Sigh.

Yea so I felt that was the only con of this whole course. Otherwise, everything else would be fine and dandy for me. The lecturers I’ve got were helpful, knowledgeable, funny and cute in their own ways. =) So, on the scale of 1 to 10, I would give this course a rating of 8.7 (How did I manage to pull out such accurate figures? ) Tee-hee.

Mufy has ended. I’m obviously, happy. Can finally get to do the things I’ve always wanted to do. =]